As I sit down to write this first post that I have been trying to write since oh I don’t know maybe last January, I am already thinking about all of the other things I need to do today and most importantly what I can get done before my little ones wake up from their ever sporadic naps. The list goes as according:
- Do the dishes
- Do the laundry
- Eat something
- Drink enough coffee to stay awake but not too much to cause sever anxiety/ panic attack
- Meditate or just take a few deep breaths
- Pet dog
- Do mantras
- Do Yoga
- Try to figure out a healthy and quick dinner that doesn’t involve a blue box
This list runs through my head every day, all day, and you want to know what gets done every day? The dishes (many rounds), caffeine consumption (always over the amount I need) the laundry, eating something quick and throwing a halfway decent dinner together.
I am a mom to two beautiful girls, Avery Jean (3) and Gracie (10 months) and I am also a mom who struggles with Anxiety, OCD and the occasional (now) panic attack. I have struggled with Postpartum Anxiety and depression with both girls and every day is a fight to keep myself healthy both mentally and physically for my girls and for myself.
Being a woman, a mother to two little girls and a wife is a never ending, frantic and most of the time selfless job. We are strong and love what we do but we often neglect the most important part of the equation, ourselves.
One of things I have always loved to do is write. I have my Bachelor’s degree in Journalism and have had a journal since I can remember. So today my act of self love is writing. I have decided to just start doing and not over thinking.
Today I write my first post and I will continue to do so because it helps ease my soul, makes me feel accomplished and inspires me to do something more than clean and cook. It motivates me to take care of myself and to help other women to do the same. I will write about any and everything that helps me fill my cup.
And that’s my first post. It is about the first step, just doing it, making the move whatever that is for you. Whether it’s taking five minutes to eat some chocolate on the couch, going back to school or sitting and reading a few pages in a new book, each of these are huge accomplishments in my eyes.
I hope ya’ll come back and get a little reprieve and maybe some ideas and motivation to make your day feel a little bit saner and have something all to yourself, even if it’s just for five minutes.
Chat Soon Lovelies!